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Emery…Brisbane Newborn Photographer

But dear, sweet, second born…

Let me tell you this…

The truth is…

Before you were born…

I doubted the infinity of love…

and yet…

The moment they placed you in my arms…

Cocooned in blankets…

With your button nose and scrunched up lips…

Eyes shut firmly and so new to this world…

It’s as if I grew a whole new heart…

just for you.

The truth is darling…

it was you who taught me…

to really believe…

That despite the guilt, the worry…

The urgent need to be everything to everyone…

That, in fact, I am enough, as I am…

Yes, I was already someone’s mother…

when you came into my life…

But you made me a better one.

(Written by Rasha Rushdy)

 

You guys….my eye’s are leaking. I am full of sadness, full of joy, full of all the feels. My teeny tiny baby has just turned one. And while I am overwhelmed by the enormity the past year or so has brought, I am also overjoyed at just what we’ve achieved.

After all….from little things…big things grow!

 

photograph of embryoI shared a little blog post about me last week but since I am feeling sad my baby is no longer I thought I’d share a little bit about this special guy. Anyone who knows me knows I always wanted to be a mumma, but between my job and well, life…prince charming never arrived? So I took things into my own hands and set about doing things on my own. Fast forward 8 years later and I have two gorgeous little guys conceived via IVF with the generous gift of a donor. This is the story of my newest addition, sniff sniff, who is not so new anymore!

On the 20th of October 2016 I had this beautiful little hatching embryo transferred and yep, you guessed it, he decided to stick! I had a pretty rough pregnancy with every complication under the sun but thankfully I was rewarded and he stayed put.

I have been extremely blessed over his first year to have so many moments captured by my wonderful photographer friends and as I look back and reminisce on our journey I realize just how lucky I am. When I encourage my clients to capture every moment…it is so that when you have these feels, when you are sad your little one has gone and grown, you can look back and cry…just like me…lol!

 

Pregnant woman wearing yellow lace dress and yellow flower crown in forestI was extremely blessed to have my maternity and birth images captured by my dear friend Rana at Breathe Birth Photography. I hate being in front of the lens but I had my first pregnancy and birth captured and they are by far some of my most treasured possessions. This pregnancy I really resented my body, it had let me down, I couldn’t get pregnant, I couldn’t stay pregnant, and in the end I couldn’t deliver either. I just felt like such a failure and being so unwell I often felt a complete disconnect with the little life growing inside me. It wasn’t until this session and these images that I truly felt the beautiful bond with my little love nestled under my heart. Completely in awe that despite the odds my body had continued to grow and nourish new life. The pregnant body is such an amazing thing and it is a time in my life that I genuinely felt beautiful. Newborn being born via emergency csection in an operating theatre caesarian birthAnd there was never a question I would have my birth’s photographed, no matter what they looked like. The moments that I was not, present, the magic that I may have missed, the true miracle of birth and new life in all it’s wonder.

World…Meet Emery.x.

Newborn sleeping in brown bowl on brown backdrop with yellow flowersThen, like my first born, my dear photographer friend and mentor captured the most phenomenal moments of my little guy…all those little rolls and folds, the most luscious lips and squishy cheeks. At the time, I thought he was giant, much bigger than my first born, but now I look back and he was really just a teeny little guy. My heart literally lurches when I look at these and I do hope the families I photograph get the same visceral emotions when they look at their images.

These divine images were captured by my dear friend Luisa at Luisa Dunn Photography Sleeping newborn wrapped in rust coloured wrap and bonnet laying on leaf backdropIn hindsight, I should have left it to my sweet friend, I was in so much pain and feeling terribly unwell, props to those photographers who take their own newborn images, but I had to snap just a couple . Y’all know my favourite colour is mustard and these special things I had been collecting throughout my pregnancy not knowing if Emery would come out a pink bebe or a blue one lol!! Newborn sleeping in farmers basket with yellow wrap and yellow knit romper on wooden floor Newborn sleeping in white wool bowl with mustard wrap and cream blanket with mustard and cream soft toy owl on white wooden floorAnd then I blinked and six months had gone. We learnt what a sweet and funny little guy he was. And also his wild side…crawling at 4.5 months and into everything! Again I was blessed to have this gorgeous little personality captured by another dear friend….Kelly from Little Pieces Photography. Six month old baby laying on brown fluff wearing mustard singlet romper smiling Six month old baby on plum coloured backdrop wearing mustard coloured singlet romper and brown shorts with braces and mustard moccasins Six month old baby on plum coloured backdrop wearing mustard coloured singlet romper and brown shorts with braces and mustard moccasinsIt is amazing to see just how much growth happens with little ones during that first year. They grow, they flourish and they master so very much. I’ll be the first person to admit, I much prefer tiny bebe’s but people have always said to me that each stage is just as amazing as the last and as I get to know my boys, I am inclined to agree.

At ten months you are walking (running about!), talking and exploring the world around you. You are an absolute delight in our lives.

Here my dear friend Stefanie from Stefanie Plum Photography got the sweetest shots of Emery in her studio. Nine month old baby boy sitting on white bed linen wearing carkey green romper with brown buttons and brown shorts with braces Nine month old baby boy sitting on white bed linen wearing carkey green romper with brown buttons and brown shorts with bracesAs your first year draws to a close we celebrated our journey so far and Mother’s Day with the most magical session at my beautiful friend Amy from Fleurette Photography‘s property. I’ve shared a few from this divine session already but it was so important for me to get in front of the lens, to capture memories being made with my beautiful boys. Whilst I have been very spoiled to have so many stunning photos of my little men, it is not often that I am actually present in the images and this session was the most amazing gift I could ever hope for. Ten month old wearing cream knit romper standing on cream vintage iron bed with white blankets and pink pillows and pink and cream flower vine in field at sunset Ten month old wearing cream knit romper in field at sunsetAnd now…you are one. I do not know where the time has gone. The saying, the days are long but the years are short fits perfectly with a little one’s first year. You are an absolute joy and you have fit perfectly into our lives like you were always meant to be here.

At 5:01pm on 6.7.17 our worlds changed in the most unimaginable way. My soul yearned for you for so long & while the road was rough you have been the shining light. Emery Charles my love for you knows no bounds. Looking back on you first year makes my heart explode. I feel incredibly blessed to be your mumma.

One year old boy in field at sunset smashing cakeWe celebrated with a cake smash in the park (how lush are these mustard pants from Threads for Ted…merino wool all the way from New Zealand & custom made for Emery!) One year old boy dressed in wolf outfit on grey flokati and cream fur with cream bucketAnd the most adorable custom made wolf outfit made by one of my favourite vendors Holly from Pup and Frank especially for Emery’s woodland theme first birthday party.

I hope looking back on my little guy’s first year not only makes you nawwww with cuteness but also reminds you just how important it is to capture this time before they are grown and you have forgotten their roly poly fingers, their pudgey cheeks, their scrunch nosed smile. Blink and you will miss it…speaking from experience!

If you haven’t booked your newborn session or milestone session for your little one’s first year….get in touch now! I would love to give you these memories for your very own.

Ps…you guys I legit cried this week when I sent my mum to the chemist for some baby paracetamol and she returned with the 1-5yrs one…I NEED baby panadol, not toddler panadol I cried. I’m sure all you mumma’s of newly turned one year olds will feel my pain. Please stay my baby forever sweet Emery.x.

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