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“Some families are created in different ways….but are still in every way a family”

I’ve always loved that statement…even before my own family was created, it just kind of resonated with me. Being a newborn photographer I am super blessed to meet and photograph many families of all different compositions…you know the common running theme, the most important thing? Love…that’s it. It’s not how many parents or the gender of those parents or if they are raised by multiple family members. Each and every baby that enters my studio is surrounded by love and it radiates from every session.

Some of you may know, my story is a little different and my family didn’t come about in the traditional way. I was raised by a phenomenal single Mumma and I have two younger brothers. I’ve wanted to be a Mumma for as long as I can remember. Neither of my brother’s were in that big of a hurry and were younger, which of course meant they both beat me to it and I have six amazing nephews and a niece that have filled my life with so much joy over the years. But anyone who has ever yearned to be a Mumma will know…there is nothing that will fill that void. Also my work as a NICU nurse exposed me to the harsh reality that sometimes the journey to mummahood can be fraught with danger. I try not to have a skewed perspective but pregnancy and childbirth can be scary y’all and the reassurance that it will ‘just happen’ is not a guarantee. In my NICU work I saw Mumma’s fight for years and years to realize their dreams and sometimes to have it shattered and taken away from them anyway. I didn’t want to wait for too long…the ever biological clock looming over my shoulder.

In my early 30’s I promised myself that if I hadn’t met the right person by the time I was 35 I would go it alone. I met with a fertility specialist ‘just in case’ and they asked me what I was waiting for. When I said ‘Prince Charming’ they all giggled and assured me he probably didn’t exist, or certainly that I didn’t need to wait for him to be a Mumma. And I thought…you know what?….they’re right! And I guess the rest is history?

Anyone who has had IVF knows it’s challenging, and probably wouldn’t wish it on their worst enemy. It was definitely a challenging few years….financially, physically, emotionally…it takes all you have left. But luckily, most are rewarded and those rewards are insanely worth it! I remember after those first few appointments being sent home with a handful of ‘profiles’, told to stop and grab a bottle of wine…and ‘date’. Not the most romantic or traditional way to think about who will help create your family but it definitely made me giggle and made an otherwise fairly intense experience a little light hearted. I remember getting together with a few different sets of friend, a pack of post it notes and a few more bottles of wine. In the beginning I thought all that was important was finding a healthy donor but it was so much more complicated than that. And now that I sit on the other side of this journey with two healthy boys, I am glad we pondered those profiles so thoughtfully in the beginning. I chose an amazing donor, someone who didn’t want children himself, but was married and wanted other families to have the opportunity to fulfill their dreams. Both boys were created during the same cycle with the same donor, my first little guy put straight back into my tummy during a fresh cycle and my second little guy and some  buddies popped in the freezer for the future.

In the beginning, despite being raised my an amazing single Mumma, I worried that my children would be judged from coming from a non-traditional family…I certainly got some disappointing opinions from strangers and friends alike but graciously as I’ve grown as a Mumma I’ve realized that other’s opinions don’t matter. And that families come in many different ways. I have always been honest with my boys as they’ve grown about how they were created. How they were chosen, rather than a given. I told my biggest boy as he grew, and we have continued the story on, that some families have two mums, some families have two dads, some kids are raised by their grandparents….every family is different, all you need is each other to make a family.

When we first started the story I told him he didn’t have a ‘daddy’ so we needed help from a Dr to get him in my belly and he came from an egg. As he grew he always accepted that story and would tell anyone, bus driver included, that he came from an egg! As he got older and we started working on getting him a sibling his understanding had grown immensely. We learned that men have seed and ladies have egg’s and they are mixed together to make a baby (thank heavens we haven’t got to the S.E.X talk yet cause I’m not sure I’m prepared for that lol!!!) I told him we didn’t have any seed so we had to get the seed from the Dr who put him in my belly and that that seed came from a man called a donor. We looked at photo’s of him and my big boy mentioned the similarities in he and the donor. He learned that if he wanted he could meet the donor when he was older (18) and from then on he’s just been added to our story. Last year we had the awesome excitement of virtually meeting some of the boys ‘diblings’ (donor siblings….so mumma’s who have used the same donor as us and have had gorgeous kiddo’s too!) across the world…and that’s added another chapter to our learning.  I love that our ‘family’ is so big, that my boys have so many opportunities for relationships, for learning about themselves, where they have come from and who they are.

embryo

‘Easton…created and transferred on 11.04.11’

I always look back on these images with such awe…can you believe these amazing cells are now a gorgeous seven year old boy? photograph of embryo

‘Emery…created on 11.04.11 and transferred on 20.10.16’

And a cheeky almost three year old?

pregnant woman with dark short hair in field wearing apricot dress holding belly

I don’t have the greatest of pregnancies but I do adore these beautiful bumps…Easton captured by Leanne Brischetto Photography

Preganant woman wearing white lace dress amongst pink flowers

And Emery captured so stunningly by Rana at Breathe Birth Photography

Now here is where I would insert the most gorgeous updated family photo of the three of us but sadly there isn’t one. I haven’t practiced what I preached and our last family photo’s were over a year and a half ago. I have all your same excuses, no money, no time, too flabby….life just gets in the way. I hear you all. But…I’m working on it and watch this space. I hope you are working on booking photo’s too. Especially after the past few scary months with this dreaded virus, being away from your loved ones, some losing family, missing special moments with those that are dear to you. Don’t wait.

Drawing of woman holding two childrenIn the mean time how gorgeous is this drawing of us that my sister in law had made for me for my birthday….

And if you are working on your story…creating your own unique family…get in touch, because I’d love to be the one to tell your story. I’d love to capture your new little love as they are welcomed earthside. I’d love to celebrate your little one throughout their first year.

 

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Time cannot steal the treasures…

that we carry in our hearts…

Nor ever dim the shining thoughts…

our cherished past imparts…

For the memories of the ones we loved…

still cast a gentle glow…

To grace our days and light our paths…

wherever we may go.

 

When I prepare for a session and welcome a new family into my home I am thinking of many things. I send a questionnaire to families when they first book, that in a few simple questions gives me an insight into how to plan their session, simple things like what colours they like, what the nursery looks like, gender etc but I also want to know their story, I want to know where they have come from and how their little love came to be. What brought them to me, have they known hurt or loss. I want to weave these memories into their session so that while we create images that will become memories for the generations to follow, we also intertwine their past into today’s story.

I ask families to bring something along that has sentimental value to their family, to their story. Something that was given to their baby, something handmade, the first soft toy their bought in the years they were trying to create new life. Something a relative lovingly made for their little love. Something that belonged to them as a child or that was passed down from the generations. A memory of a loved one that once was or someone who came before them that shaped their story. An heirloom item that will become part of this new little loves history along with the memories that we will create on the day.

Over the years I have had the most beautiful and heartfelt items been brought and included in our sessions, so today I thought I’d share with you some stories through imagery and hope that it helps you tell your story.

Set of two images top one newborn sleeping in pink doll pram wearing pink knitted bonnet on pink flokati and bottom same image with 10 month oldThis is adorable pink pram belonged to Isabella’s Mumma when she was a little girl. We included it in both her newborn and her one year session. Can you imagine this pram, along with these images being handed down to Isabella’s children? The stories we write today are not just for ourselves.

Newborn girl sleeping on red suitcase with brown lace wrap and bow tiebackThis red suitcase belonged to Daisy’s Great Grandmother who sadly passed away just days before Daisy was born…it was such an honour to include this in their session.

Newborn baby boy sleeping on brown blanket with brown bonnet and shaggy old brown dog toy Newborn baby girl on brown blanket with brown bow tieback holding shaggy old dog toyThis shaggy dog called ‘Dusty’ belonged to Nate & Evelyn’s Papa…these session’s of these sweet siblings were two years apart but we included the worn dog in both sessions as precious keepsakes for their family. Newborn baby boy sleeping in little white bed with blue fluff and old blue balnket Newborn baby boy sleeping in little white bed with blue fluff and old blue balnketThis adorable blue blanket was the blanket that Elijah’s Papa was brought home from hospital in…imagine still having that to hand down to Elijah and then to his children. Newborn baby boy laying in cane basket with brown wrap and brown fur holding angel pictureThis very special picture that belonged to Henry’s Nanna and was given to Henry and his Mumma as a guardian angel for their journey through the NICU….always watching over them. Newborn baby boy sleeping in cane baslet on brown blanket wrapped in cream wrap with knitted bonnet holding old toy dogThis loved and well worn monkey belonged to Benjamin’s Mumma when she was a baby…. Newborn baby girl wrapped in mint wrap with mint tieback laying in white felt nest with pink felt wrap on pink, mint and white quiltI may have squealed a little when Quinn’s mumma sent me the photo of this stunning quilt in our session prep. I love it when families want to include something special in their session and this quilt is all that and more….made especially for Quinn by her Great God-Mother (is that even a thing? Her God-Mother’s mumma made it anyway!) You could absolutely tell how much love went into every little stitch. Just.Love.It.

Newborn baby girl sleeping in vintage cane white pram with cream wrap and blue bonnetAva brought this very special pram to her session and it was such a privilege to include it in her session…it’s over 90 years old…so much special tradition. Newborn baby boy sleeping in round wooden bowl with brown blanket and brown wrap holding photo in frame on deceased grandfatherTwo special guys who will sadly never meet but will have a beautiful connection despite this…it is such an honour to capture memories that otherwise may have never happened. Newborn baby girl sleeping in white wooden bed with crochet cream blanket on fur and knit bonnet with same set up in sitterThis shawl was no exception…Cailin’s mumma made this especially for her before she was born and we included in both her newborn and sitter sessions. Newborn baby girl on brown vintage suitcase with lace doily and bow tiebackWhen Myra’s mumma said she wanted to bring her grandfathers vintage suitcase, I knew it would be extra special.

Newborn baby girl sleeping in white basket on white wooden floor in white romper with teal tieback cuddling vintage knit pandasHow adorable are these two sweet panda’s Layla is snuggling, they were made for Layla’s mumma by Layla’s great grandma before she passed away and they look well loved because they have been around for such a long time. Newborn baby girl in wooden log bowl with orange wrap and blanket and curly felt with gumnit tieback holding photo of deceased grandmotherSarah with a very special photo of her grandmother who is watching down on her from heaven. This divine blanket, passed down through the generations of Elsie’s family and now snuggling her. Such a special tradition. Newborn baby girl sleeping in round wooden bowl with apricot blanket and wrao laying on purple floral shirt with purple wrap on white wooden floorAnd these last two images…all kinds of special. The first is sweet Elianna with her Nanna Joy. When we took this special image, we knew how important it would be as Joy was in the midst of the most heroic fight with cancer and then before their next addition Arabella arrived Joy tragically lost that battle. We created the second image using Joy’s gorgeous shirt she wore on the day of Elianna’s session and there was not a dry eye.

Find your story…let me tell your story…your history and your future. I can’t wait to work with you.x.

 

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“You’ll never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory”

 

Following on from my post on Sunday about how a session flow’s…..I thought I’d show you a session from start to finish. Today I’m going to share gorgeous CeCe’s session in the exact order that we went through on the day and the collection of images that her family received. Cecilia’s Mumma and Papa asked for a simple soft pink and white gallery, very girly with flowers. I had loads of fun (as a boy Mumma!) setting up all things girly for their day and they absolutely adored their images! Newborn baby girl sleeping on pink blanket with pink knit wrap and flower tieback and bonnetFirst we started on the bean bag with a beautiful soft pink drop and some simple knits…CeCe had the most divine lashes and these simple shots show all of her in her simple beauty.

Newborn baby girl sleeping on white blanket with white wrap and tieback and bonnet with owlAnd then some stunning simple white…look at those smoochie lips and cute little bootie!

Newborn baby girl wearing pink romper in pink and green floral nest on wooden floorThen we moved on to this gorgeous flower nest, I love that one prop can give you so many different angles and allow you to show all those tiny details, little piggies and dainty long fingers.

Newborn baby girl wearing cream romper sleeping on cream iron bedThis is one of my favourite props and I use it in almost all of my sessions. I was given this vintage cream iron bed and it works with every session. Today we stuck with a neutral look with these stunning blankets made by my mum. Newborn baby girl sleeping in pink crochet bowl with cream felt layer and pink knit outfit and tieback and bonnetThis set up was everything that Mumma wanted…pinks, white’s, soft and simple….this divine knitted romper has the most intricate details and went perfectly with her absolutely perfect features. Newborn baby girl sleeping wrapped in pink wrap on patchwork quiltHow stunning is this patchwork quilt….

*In true honour of how the session went….we paused here for a brief interlude of feeding and pooping….then back onto it*

Newborn baby girl sleeping in round wooden bowl wearing cream lace romper with cream fur and bonnet and bear on wooden floorThis lace romper is one of my very favourite’s and of course the vendor is no longer operating so I treat it like gold but again, another simple set up that allows to show for CeCe’s gorgeous little details….those lashes, and those long fingers that will be pudgy and picking things up before you know it. Newborn baby girl wrapped in pink wrap with pink curly felt in wooden log bowl on wooden floorThis is the foetal position that I always try and mimic…take a quiet moment to pause and think about the amazing fact that just day’s earlier Cecilia was curled up exactly like this under her Mumma’s heart.x. Newborn baby girl sleeping in farmers basket wearing cream romper with cream felt on wooden floorJust plain and simple baby girl….

Newborn baby girl wearing pink romper being held by parents in both colour and black and white imagesAnd finally CeCe with her beautiful family….how snug does she look with her Mumma and Papa…these moments I hope will be treasured forever and passed down through the generations. She will never be this small and snuggly again. And hopefully…when you’re laying awake on those sleepless nights Mumma…look at these beautiful images and remember she is your why.

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The little things…the little moments…they aren’t little.”

Have you ever wondered what happens during a newborn session? How things….’flow’ as we say in photography talk! Some families that have come to newborn sessions with me have had sessions with other photographers before so they may have a little idea and other families are complete newborn photography session virgins! Obviously when we first get in touch I send you some general information about what to expect, what to do to prepare, and what we need to do to help create a session that exceeds all your expectations, that captures memories of your little love and your family at a time that you will never get back again.

Usually I have a standard flow that I stick to as I’ve found with experience it seems to work best for teeny tiny bubba’s. A flow that helps them stay snuggled and sleepy and calm, feel safe and secure and to capture those magic shots that your family will treasure for ever. BUT…the thing I always mention from beginning to end is that baby is always boss! Sessions are loosely timed over a 2-4hr period allowing time for baby to stop for settling and feeding etc. Sometimes we also mix up the session flow to suit certain family situations, sometimes siblings need to nap when we would usually be shooting the sibling component of the session so we do those images first and then siblings can head home. Sometimes, Papa’s need to be go back to work so we do family portraits first. No matter what we can always be flexible but here’s a quick sneak peak at what a run of the mill session looks like….

When a family first arrives we all make ourselves comfy in the lounge area…make coffee’s and get cookies. Make sure siblings know where all the good toys are and honestly make everyone feel at home and comfortable. We take a quick tour of the toasty warm studio to check Mumma and Papa are happy with what we’ve set up and add in any things the family may have brought to include in the session such as handmade wraps or blankets, special teddy bears and other sentimental keepsakes that will stay with these divine images for generations to come.

We unwrap bubba down to a nappy and feed them, best case scenario to milk drunk status! And then I head into the studio with a snuggly sleepy baby. I always tell families that I will work with baby as long as baby is willing and that if we have to stop at any time for feeds or settling then we will. Usually Mumma’s, Papa’s and siblings hang out in the living room or outside with the trampoline, scooters and swings while I work my magic. I’ve always been happy for families to pop in and out during the session to see their little ones at work modelling away but since Covid-19 we have made a few changes to practices in the studio and I have tried to go forward keeping the amount of people in the studio to a minimum as we move forward. I am still more than happy for families to pop in and out, then of course we have everyone in the studio at the end for the sibling and family component. Then after each session the studio will be cleaned and sterilized in between each family and there will be no back to back sessions.

I always start on the bean bag with the adorable ‘bum up’ pose which I can mix up with wraps, bonnets and tiebacks I adore this pose cause it begins with just plain old adorable baby goodness…all the rolls, smooshy lips, whirls of hair and cute little tooshies. Then we can transition this pose to side lying, taco or head on hands all while on the bean bag. Newborn baby boy sleeping on brown blanket with cream bonnet and cream knitted bear

Newborn baby girl sleeping on pink lacey blanket with pink tieback Smiling sleeping baby girl on brown blanket with brown bow tieback Newborn twin girls on pink blanket wearing pink tiebacksWe can also use the bean bag to capture some gorgeous close up detail shots….

Newborn baby boy sleeping on grey blanket wearing grey knit romper Newborn baby girl sleeping on pink blanket with pink wrap and white knitted bonnet Newborn baby girl sleeping on pink blanket with purple flower wrap and knit bonnetAnd some stunning angles… Newborn baby girl sleeping on cream blanket with rainbow knit blanket and rainbow felt hearts Newborn baby girl sleeping on white blnaket with mint knit wrap and tieback Newborn baby boy sleeping on grey blanket with grey wrapI usually do two different blanket drops on the bean bag then we move on to props on the floor.

I have several different props I use and what I use is shaped by what the parents talk about in the lead up to the session, what their style is…and sometimes if I have something gorgeous and new I want to try out. As I’ve mentioned before, not all babies will go in every prop or be comfortable in every  position and EVERY baby is always in charge! So then we just meander our way through the props, outfit changes, wraps. I use waaaaaay more props during each session than most of my colleagues but I’ve always done that and I feel like it’s my point of difference.

We have baskets, bowls, beds and basically anything I’ve spotted that I think will be gorgeous with a sweet newborn snuggled in it! When I’m posing a baby in a prop my primary concern is and will always be safety but it’s also a time I really centre into myself. It’s a time I stop and let my mind imagine that just mere days before this teeny tiny baby was snuggled up under it’s Mumma’s heart, safely tucked inside her belly, hidden from the world. When I wrap and pose babies into positions I try to mimic that curled up position that were in just before they have come to the studio. It is part of the reason we schedule sessions in that early newborn period when they are at their smallest, curliest and newest…because these are moments you will never get back. I read somewhere once you have a newborn for literally two weeks. I want to immortalize that into images for families to hold on to for generations to come. When I look at a baby curled up in that foetal position my heart skips a beat a little. What privilege to witness life so new. Newborn baby boy in basket wrapped in mustard coloured blanket and bonnet Sleeping newborn baby girl in white and blue lacey romper on blue blanket in wooden bowl on blue lace blanket wearing blue lace tieback Newborn baby boy laying in brown fur and brown wrap sleeping with hand on his face Newborn baby girl sleeping in wooden log bowl with green curly felt and green wrap laying on wooden floor smiling Newborn baby boy sleeping on wooden log bowl wrapped in blue wrap with blue knitted bonnet and blue elephant on blue fur Newborn baby boy sleeping in wooden log bowl wrapped in grey wrap laying on grey fluff on wooden floor Newborn baby girl wearing pink romper sleeping in round cane basket with pink curly felt with pink flowers Newborn baby girls sleeping in white cane basket with white curly felt on white wooden floor wearing white lace rompers with white bonnetsThere’s just something so sweet about a baby tucked up in a bed too…

Newborn baby girl sleeping on pink cradle with pink crochet blanket and pink curly felt with flowers on the floor Newborn twin girls sleeping in brown wooden bed with green blanket and green tiebacks on green back drop Newborn baby boy sleeping on white wooden bed with grey blanket and gret and cream bears Newborn baby girl sleeping in white wooden bed on white wooden floor with pink blanket and wrap and lace blanket and tieback Newborn baby bpy sleeping in wooden bed with brown blanket and bonnet and bunny Preterm baby girl sleeping in white bed with pink blanket surrounded by keepsakes from her Intensive Care journeyThen once we’ve done the prop shots we move on to sibling shots. This can be different for every family. I always try and get two different set ups, one with a prop and one on a flokati on the floor but sibling shots are always dictated by the age of the children. I always do sibling shot’s at the end of the session as it’s given the children time to make themselves at home in my home. Usually by this stage they have pulled out every single toy my children own and when they come into the studio they are feeling comfortable, safe and excited about what’s about to happen. I find when we do sibling shot’s straight up….they’ve just entered a foreign place, there is some strange lady holding a big black box up to her face, their whole world has been turned upside down in the past two weeks with Mumma and Papa staying in hospital and them being sent to Nanny’s or a friends….and THEN this new baby has been brought home…they are noisy, the smell funny, they are taking up everyone’s time. This is the biggest time in their littlest world. So whilst always ensuring baby is safe, we work with the siblings as much as they are comfortable. Some kids don’t want a bar of the baby and we have lots of tricks up our sleeves to make it happen! Sibling sisters aged seven, eleven and newborn laying on cream fur with baby wrapped in cream wrap and tieback and sisters wearing cream dresses.

Seven year old boy in blue button up shirt holding toy bunny with newborn baby girl sleeping in white fur bowl wrapped in a pink blanket with a pink tieback and bunny toy Newborn baby girl wrapped in olive wrap and tieback cuddling sibling brother wearing olive overalls on cream fur Newborn baby girl sleeping in vintage pram with purple felt and wrap and flowers and tieback with sibling sister wearing purple tutu Three brothers sitting on cream flokati Sleeping newborn boy cuddling toddler boy sibling on grey flokati Newborn baby girl sleeping in vintage pram with pink fluff and tieback being pushed by her 3 year old sister wearing a pink tutu dress Newborn baby girl wrapped in white wrap with blue tieback being held by toddler girl sibling on cream fur Newborn baby girl sleeping in cane basket with teal curly felt and navy blue felt with teal bow tieback sitting beside older sibling brothers. Six year old girl sitting on cream fur rug holding sleeping baby boy sibling Newborn baby girl sleeping in cream iron bed wearing pink knit romper and tieback with pink sheepskin layer and flowers and bunny toy being kissed by sibling brother wearing blue jacket and jeans holding toy bunnyThen we move on to parent shots….Mumma first….

Newborn baby boy sleeping naked in mums arms with mum smiling Newborn baby boy sleeping in tattoed mummas arms Newborn baby boy wrapped in blue wrap being held by mother Newborn twin boys wrapped in navy blue wrap being held by motherThen we add in Papa…

Newborn baby girl in cream romper being held by mother and father Newborn baby boy being held by parents kissing Newborn baby girl wrapped in cream wrap being held by mother and fatherAnd then we do Papa on is own… Black man holding naked white newborn Newborn baby girl sleeping in papas arms Newborn baby boy sleeping in dads arms Newborn baby boy sleeping in firemans hat being held by fireman in uniformAnd then of course the whole family… Newborn baby wrapped in pink wrap being held by mother with father standing beside holding sibling sister Newborn wearing cream romper being held by mother with father standing beside and sibling sister Newborn baby wrapped in pink wrap being held by mother with father standing beside holding sibling brother Newborn twin boys wrapped in blue wraps being held by mother with father and sibling brother and sister Newborn baby boy wrapped in blue wrap sleeping being held by mother with father behind holding sibling big sisterNow every now and then parents don’t want to get in photo’s…and I strongly try and encourage them, like I said, it’s not about what you look like, it’s about capturing this very brief moment in time, it’s about connection and love….

But I do have a few other tricks up my sleeve to at least capture that moment.

Newborn baby girl sleeping in her fathers hands Newborn baby boy sleeping soundly in mum and dads arms in black and white Newborn baby in parents arms in black and whiteThis moment needs to be frozen in time…I want families to look back for generations to come of that blink when your little love was at their newest.

So there you have it…a general session, sometimes it runs smoothly, sometimes bubba’s or even siblings have other idea’s but I’ve always been a go with the flow kind of person and let them lead the session. Some sessions fall on feeding frenzy days and then we end up doing lots of chatting while babies fill their little bellies, other days, babies like to be snuggled, lots, which I love, cause who doesn’t love snuggles but it does sometimes make for tricky newborn pics when it’s me they are snuggling! Sometimes we spend half an hour dancing around like clowns trying to get siblings to not drop the baby on the floor and look at the camera at the same time! Most importantly, we do whatever it takes to make sure your little one is safe, comfortable and happy, that we capture beautiful memories of your family during this special time during your lives and that you all have a special unique experience surrounded by my love and care.

 

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“I seem to have loved you….in numberless forms,

in numberless times…in life after life, in age after age,

forever.”

“My brave butterfly…your body may have died but your fighting spirit will forever be a part of me.

For as I carried you in my womb through your life, I will carry you in my heart through mine”

Newborn baby boy seeping in wooden bowl wearing blue knot romper and bonnet with cream blanket holding small knit bear and wool heart connecting baby to smaller wooden bowl containing cream wrap and small knit bear and felt heart and butterfly and urn and frame of deceased baby siblingI know I say this every session but today, my heart is literally so full, so broken, so hopeful, so loved I just don’t know if I can carry it in my chest any more. Every now and then people come into your lives and you just know they will touch you in a way you’ve never been touched before. I first met this gorgeous family in their darkest hours…just days after welcoming their divine twin baby boys they were preparing to say goodbye to their littlest love, Ethan. You see I was Ethan’s nurse that day, and I stood by their side in the darkness as he took his last courageous breath. From that moment on, a little piece of my heart went with Ethan to heaven but a little piece stayed with his big brother Harrison. Over the next few months I did my best not to give secret snuggles to Harrison when I was supposed to be busy working, I often failed miserably at favouritism…sssssshhhh don’t tell all the other special babies! And I had the greatest honour of caring for Harrison in his last few days in the NICU after a courageous 84 day battle…stomach surgery, eye treatments, blood transfusions, brain surgery…literally every hurdle a little guy born at just 25 weeks and weighing a mere 800 grams could endure before we sent him home to his Mumma and Papa. But you see…this guy has plans…big plans…and he whispered in my ear one night that he was going to fight every battle no matter what we threw at him to live in honour of his tiny little brother Ethan. And he has done just that. Emma and Ben…you thanked me for teaching you to be parents to your boys…but honestly, I am the one who should be saying thank you…your little men have filled my heart in a way I never knew possible. Every little life that is lost in the NICU touches me, so many I could never possibly remember every name, every moment, every word spoken….but sometimes…there are some that sneak their way into your hearts forever. We never imagined today’s session would happen, there were so many obstacles, but it did, and I’m pretty sure we have Ethan to thank for bringing this all together. Thanks little guy.

World….Meet Harrison.x.

Newborn baby boy sleeping on blue blanket with blue wrap Newborn baby boy sleeping in farmers basket with brown blanket and grey curly felt and wrap holding silver bracelet How divine is this little bracelet Harrison is holding….little H and little E included…and filled with love.x. Newborn baby boy sleeping in cane basket wearing brown knit romper and bonnet with brown owl toy and cream blanket on wooden floor Newborn baby boy sleeping in cane basket with navy knit layer and wrap on white wooden floor Newborn baby boy sleeping on cream blanket with blue wrap and bonnetI adore this gorgeous blue knit blanket Harrison brought with him for his session today….and who doesn’t love a good pom pom beanie!

Newborn baby boy sleeping in wooden bed wearing cream knit romper and bear bonnet with cream knit wrap and layer holding cream knit bearBoth of the boys absolutely loved holding onto things…everything that came into contact they quickly grabbed it. I was going to sneak this bear under the blanket with him but he grabbed his arm straight away and I just knew this was the perfect shot…just two little bears hanging out for a nap! Newborn baby boy wrapped in navy wrap with navy blanket on wooden floorMumma asked for a gorgeous gallery of neutrals and navy’s…just perfect for such a handsome little man!

Newborn baby boy wrapped in blue wrap on cream flokati being held by motherNow Mumma didn’t want to be in any photo’s…something I hear all too often but I convinced her to capture this special shot with her two gorgeous boys snuggled together…it turned out more beautiful than I could ever dream of.

Mother holding newborn baby boy sleeping wearing cream knit romperWell….then this happened. I begged her, I promised her she would never have this moment again. My heart hurt because I had said those words to her before when she held teeny tiny Ethan in her arms for the last time. Sometimes, life can be so unfair, but sometimes there is also beauty.

So much love for you Emma and Ben, and for the honour of caring for your beautiful boys Ethan and Harrison. The greatest gift.

 

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