I held you long before my arms did, in my dreams and thoughts.
I whispered to you the lullabies that would later send you off to sleep.
I knew you long before I met you,
I would talk of your personality made up of elbows and knees,
“ready to keep me on my toes”, I would say.
I loved you long before I saw you, tracing black and white prints of your lips,
knowing soon enough I’d be kissing them with my own.
I heard you long before your cry into the world.
That first heart beat, the one that echoed love and relief,
a quick rhythm that made time slow down.
I wanted you long before I needed you,
as I sat there willing tests to show me the lines that would change my life.
I felt you long before I touched you,
the stretches of my belly proudly growing you.
The pain that sometimes comes with being made of each other,
the worry, that I couldn’t be without you now.
I shared with you my heart before you’d steal it completely.
I’ve shared stories, ones of how I met your father,
books already sitting on your shelf.
I’ve shared unspoken emotions with you that I know you can feel.
I’ve shared my body, I am your land and you are my guide.
Writer…Jess Ulrichs This was the last shot of the day…Lachlan was wide awake by this stage but content to just stare into my soul. I adore this shot with his Papa. We captured a special shot with Harrison and his Mumma’s hands so I wanted to do something for Papa during Lachlan’s session too.
I shared a little live about this gorgeous family before their session…I’m pretty sure I said special at least 47 times during the live but that’s truly how I feel about them. You see I first met them when I was caring for their darling twin boys, Harrison and Ethan born well before their time at a mere 25 weeks. Despite the bravest of fights, Ethan grew his angel wings and is now watching down on the family from heaven. I first photographed the boys and was by their side when Ethan took his final breath and was able to gift the family the most precious memories through my work with Heartfelt and my nursing. Then when Harrison grew big and strong, I had the family in the studio to capture some very special ‘newborn’ images for them. And we even snuck in some adorable Christmas mini session images but there was a teeny tiny secret during the mini sessions that only I knew…and that was that there was a little bump in the images, a rainbow sent from his big brother in heaven.
World…Meet Lachlan…he’s new here.x. The greatest gift…a rainbow after the storm…not negating the storm by any means…but light after darkness. And this smile…the biggest they come…shows he’s happy to be here.x. Mumma picked a gorgeous colour palette of terracotta/burnt orange, duck egg blue, navy and even gasp…some mustard! All my faves and they work so stunningly together. We used this exact set up in Harrison’s session…I can’t wait to see the shots side by side to see the similarities and differences between the two. The sweetest rainbow… There’s just something about pouty lips, little piggies and back rolls…. Can you ever have too much mustard? All of Mumma and Papa’s babies in one image…something all parents want but some families have to accept in a different way. So glad I could capture this for them. We did a live sneak peak of this set up during the session…did you catch it? Gosh he was just perfect in every way. Ok…this isn’t technically perfect…I would have loved to see more of sweet Lachlan’s face but capturing a one year old…yes that’s right, little Harrison has only just turned one…and his new baby is just as tricky as it sounds! Harrison wasn’t too keen on my camera and there were actually four adults dancing, singing and making clicking noises with our tongues all the while trying to keep these sweet boys safe, comfy and cute…and I kinda love it. It shows both boys little personalities…Lachlan is super laid back and Harrison is adorably sweet but a little cheeky!
Emma and Ben…you know how much I adore you and your three darling boys…thank you for sharing your story and your family with me over the past year.
Rainbows appear after mighty storms…
When things look their very worst…
Just when the skies are darkest grey…
Look for the rainbow first.
The rainbow’s a sign of a promise…
Guiding you through any storm…
Seeing you through all your troubles…
No matter the shape or the form.
When you feel battered by life’s storms…
and your filled with doubt and dismay…
Remember a rainbow is coming…
To brighten up everyone’s day.
Oh my heavens I had the most special family in today…what a journey they’ve been through just to get to this point. Mumma first messaged me very early on and very nervous that her little man would arrive safe and sound when the time came and I am so excited to say that day is finally here. This little pudding was 100% adorbs today and it was so nice to have them all in the studio. I’ll let Mumma share her story and I’ll share some cute pics along the way but eeeeep…all kinds of lovely.
After conceiving my first born, Owen, naturally and having him at 31 weeks in 2014, we then struggled with unexplained infertility until 2020 when I conceived our little Princess via IVF in January. Unfortunately I ruptured prematurely at 18 weeks. Ella Jane’s fight ended at 20 weeks and after 6 years of not conceiving and thousands of dollars spent on the one round of IVF, we walked out of the hospital with empty hands and hearts. I was then diagnosed with an Incompetent Cervix and scheduled an abdominal suture to be placed 3 months after the loss. To our complete surprise, I called my husband at work 2.5 weeks after the operation to say I was pregnant naturally! With close supervision and care this pregnancy, our rainbow baby, Oscar, entered the world on May 13 at 37 weeks – we had a term baby!
World…Meet Oscar…he’s new here.x. Gosh he was such a gorgeous little man with a dusting of ginger (sorry Dad, blonde hair!), pouty lips and squishy cheeks. The best! I got this adorable new papasan chair prop and when I snuggled him in he absolutely loved it…what do you think? Eeeeeep how sweet are these three together? Not the sibling picture Mumma and Papa hoped and dreamed for but still their three babes together. Owen was super nervous about holding his baby but we got to chatting and before he knew it, there he was just doing it like I knew he could! And sweet Ella’s memory bear that got lots of snuggles. Those adorable little chubby hands…one of the best baby features ever, right? Owen and his darling big sister Ella safely snuggled beside him watching out for him from above. Look at that posing…completely done by him and not me! And those teeny tiny piggies! Ok…best big brother in the world right? Now this Mumma didn’t want her photo taken but how could she have missed out on this extra special moment…he will never be this small, this squishy, this new again.
Nawww that sweet little smile…look at this adorable little bear! All of Mumma and Papa’s babes…. I adore this shot…Owen had probably had enough of all of photo’s by this stage and just wanted to go and jump on the trampoline, but lucky for Oscar and all of us really, we snapped this sweet shot…two brothers, hand in hand. Stop.it.right.now…is this not the cutest thing ever???? Ending the session with this absolutely perfect shot…Ella bear and her sweet rainbow Oscar sent from above. I just know she had a hand in sending him and keeping him safe to be delivered earthside.
Owen…thank you for being the best big brother to both Ella and now Oscar, and for ultimately bringing your Mumma and Papa to me through the NICU all those years back.
Oscar, you are all kinds of special and definitely the rainbow your family needed.x.
To my second child…
You’re not my first; that much is true.
I loved another before loving you.
I’m a different mother this time around, more calm and confident, I have found.
With your brother, everything was new, I was focused on his every move.
Each tiny smile was photographed, I changed my ringtone to his laugh.
Since you came, there’s a new dimension, two children now want my attention.
And sometimes you’re left in your chair, whilst I play with your brother over there.
I cannot watch your every move. Or, when you cry out, jump to soothe,
I don’t panic every time you sneeze, and dash you off to A & E.
Your rattles and teds are hand me downs, and some toys may have lost their sound.
There’s less concern if your blanket’s scratchy, and your baby book is a little patchy.
I know what the next months have in store, and each phase you reach I’ve seen before.
This doesn’t mean I love you less, this time the feelings more complex.
I’m pleased to see you learn and grow, but it also pulls my heartstrings so.
I was so excited first time ’round, this time I want to slow things down.
Your firsts will all be lasts for me, last crawl and last ride to my knee.
Last nappy, breastfeed, spoon of food, last rock to sleep, last cry to hush.
You were not my firstborn this is true.
But the last child I will have is you.
You’re the last lullaby I’ll ever sing.
And lasts are a special kind of thing.
I’ve been feeling super sentimental lately and it sent me on the hunt for this very special session. This teeny tiny baby and teeny tiny handful of images are my sweet love Emery. It feels like just yesterday I dragged my battered and broken body into the studio to capture some special images of my own bubba. Thankfully I also had my dear friends and colleagues capture a proper newborn session for me, something I have always treasured dearly, but I also wanted the chance to capture a few of my own. I don’t know what I was thinking, it was hard and props to those of you that capture your own sessions but I am grateful I have this small handful of images of my very own. I had only edited two of these images up to this point and I’m pretty sure it was when he was about to turn one…and now he’s almost four!!! I’m glad I took the time out today to find them on an old hard drive and edit them. Of course, seasoned with my favourite mustard…look how squishy and cute he was!!
Look at dem cheeks and squishy lips and back rolls…by far the best newborn features. I purchased this adorable knitted mustard outfit when I was pregnant not knowing if Emery was going to be pink or blue…isn’t it the sweetest. Can we all just take a moment to look at this adorable little ginger mohawk… I saw this gorgeous little owl on a vendor page when I was pregnant and desperately wanted it, it’s wings are made from a stunning baby wearing wrap that I had brought for my little bump when he or she arrived, but the owl was at a market interstate. A lovely friend made it happen & one day it arrived anonymously on my doorstep. Emery still loves it to this day. He wasn’t super settled, of course, photographer child syndrome lol…and we had to wrap him up like a baby burrito! I had these adorable little bear bonnets custom made for Emery when I was pregnant by my sweet friend over at Chino Creations
Oh sweet baby I miss you so much…this was such a hard time in my life and sometimes I look back with sadness that I missed things because I was so lost in pain and sleeplessness and sorrow for the relationship upheaval with my poor innocent four year old who’s life was also turned upside down. But then I look at these images and I also remember your sweet newborn smell and little sausage toes, the way you snuggled into me to feed like you had always been here, the way my heart felt so full of love it might explode.
This…is motherhood right…so raw yet so beautiful.x.
Okay….this girl gave me some serious shade but we made it in the end! Some days you just aren’t keen for a modelling gig and that’s ok! All my sessions are baby led so we did what the boss wanted and went slow and steady as she was ready.
It was so lovely to see this sweet family again for this session. We have been friends since our 7yr olds were bebe’s and I have had the greatest joy of photographing not only their little man, but also now their surprise baby girl! When you’ve got 3 boys I think you just reside to the fact that you are a boy Mumma, so you can only imagine this Mumma’s surprise when their little love came out a pink one! I was so excited to have them all back and this sweet girl is beyond lucky to have 3 of the most loving, giving big brothers to watch out for her!
World…Meet Katelyn…she’s new here.x. Lord those side eyes…eeep! But how stunning is this blanket Katelyn brought to her session made especially for her by her nanna Mumma asked for a gorgeous gallery filled with muted purples and pinks as well as some navy and grey brought in from her big brothers session…isn’t she a doll! Katelyn felt her best all snuggled up like a baby burrito so we went with it…I just adore navy on girls. Look at that sweet smile… Like a little present all wrapped up with a bow…
Just snoozin in bed in her pjs… All of mumma’s bebe’s in one picture…doesn’t get any more special than that! This was the last shot of the day…we nearly didn’t get it. How adorbs is this little knitted vest Katelyn brought with her today!
Katelyn…although you didn’t really like me or my camera, I am so glad we managed to capture these magical memories for your mumma and papa.x.
“Today I hold you in my arms…
a day that’s filled with joy…
I never dreamt we’d be here…
My darling little boy.
Our time together to this point…
filled with tears & pain…
But every day I’m thankful…
You’re brightness in this rain…
Watching you struggle…
Each day I know it’s true…
You are my little warrior…
I know that we’ll get through…
Your braveness & your courage…
it fills my heart each day…
I love you, little darling…
In every single way.”
Today I had someone special in the studio…now I know I say that every time but this gorgeous boy was all that and more. I feel so honoured to be able to capture special memories for this beautiful family and to share their story. You see their little man is a warrior like no other…every day he fights just to be here. He has the most amazing team working hard so that he continues to live his best life and thrive and he is doing just that! This week he celebrates his 8mth birthday and that is a momentous occasion so he brought his Mumma and his Aunty to the studio and we captured him in all of his gorgeousness. I’ll let his Mumma share their story so far and I’ll share some sweet photo’s along the way but I just know you’ll agree, he is absolutely divine.
Levi had onset of focal seizures on feb 2nd at 4.5months old. He went from one to two seizures up to over 100+ a day in just over a week. We have trialed 7 medications and are currently on 3. 2 x anti epileptic and the keto diet. We are however one of the lucky ones as we have managed some reasonable seizure control. On 26 March (world epilepsy day) we had a meeting with the neurologist who confirmed a diagnosis from a gene panel of mutation KCNT1. This disorder along with medication resistant seizures also results in global development delay with most who have this condition never learning to walk or talk. He also has hypertonia & possibly CVI and future complications may be unsafe swallow meaning fundo/g tube, difficulty breathing (bipap), scoliosis and brittle bones, hip and leg tendon lengthening due to spasticity. Despite all these challenges Levi is one the the most chatty, chubby and happy bubbas ever. He is also stubborn and determined and with his family behind him will beat the odds and be living his best life. We are lucky to have an amazing little dude who will teach us what truely matters in life.
Now when your gorgeous 8mth old client arrives snoozin then you snuggle them up in a basket and squeal with joy…this doesn’t happen often…so I took great delight in snapping these sweet sleepy photos. Ok…lashes for days and can we all take a moment to enjoy these chubby little details…those lips and cheeks and chins and fingers and and and….he was so lush! Mumma chose a gorgeous gallery of soft sage greens and blues…and it went perfectly with Levi’s sweet complexion. Levi has been working super hard with the physio’s and his family and look how strong he is getting during tummy time…such a clever boy. Literally so chill…he dosed for a bit then woke with this gorgeous eye contact…heart melting. He’s just discovered his hands…so Levi was super busy during our session today. The chatter that was happening during this set up was so adorable…he was having the most enormous conversation with us all about something very important…not sure what but it sounded pretty exciting! This is a special set up we did representing Levi’s warrior spirit that gets him through every day and the purple ribbon which is the International symbol representing Epilepsy.
Levi it was an absolute honour to have you in the studio today and to be able to give your family the gift of capturing this special moment in your journey. You are truly one in a million and I feel so privileged to have met you today. Keep fighting gorgeous boy.x.